Finding Peace

I posted yesterday about the guilt I had felt over a sexual sin. I wrote that post in search of peace and relief from my guilt. I wanted to be free and to be right again with God. It was a desperate plea, I know, but I thought it was necessary to confess to someone, even if it was hiding behind the screen and to a rather empty blog.

Today I'm happy to report that I found peace. I spent time with God and in Him I found peace. I wrote out my blog post. I read my Verse of the Day. I caught up in my devotional and came across a day that truly told what I needed to hear (May 20 of the devotional Jesus Calling by Sarah Young):  how when our sins weigh us down, we need to turn to Jesus Christ, confess to Him, and to stay in His light. I prayed for forgiveness. I read the first chapter in Ellen G. White's Steps to Christ. By the time I finished with my quiet moments with God, I found peace. I found joy. I didn't feel the burden of guilt and instead felt new, pure, and whole again.

I never want to go back to feeling so dirty, so unclean, so guilty. Will it happen again? Probably. I can't guarantee that I won't fall short in the eyes of God again. But I can say that May 22 was a new beginning for me. It opened my eyes. It allowed me to see what the consequences of sin can be. No longer do I have the desire to do the things I did, ever again. Instead I want to grow more in God, become a better Christian, prepare myself to meet my future husband, and (most importantly) be ready for Christ's second coming.

Thank you to those who read my confession, and thank you to those who prayed for me. Your prayers have been answered just as mine have been. I HAVE FOUND PEACE!!!

"But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, His Son, purifies us from all sin." - 1 John 1:7 (NIV)